Yea so I fucken binged my life out till I was sick and shit from 2 am to 4 am, and I was not planning on going out, I was going to stay in again, fuck, but I pushed through, and went to Ballet anyways, and I am so glad I did. The whole class was telling me they were asking about me, and missed me, that really surprised me, and now that I think about it, it really touches me. I must have been inspiring to them, and I didn't even know. heh.
Well after wards I went to North Hollywood High School: roseline butlers health class, since Cynthia told me about it from the Moorpark group.
I met a guy who spoke too, ex-gang banger, he lost his son and baby's mama because his enemy shot them.
I went to gym after wards to try to work off my binge:
-black beans cakes
-nachos + nacho cheese + chili + ketchup/mustard/jalopenos
-mung beans/con-na-mul
-cob salad (salad, ranch dressing, olives, chicken, carrots, bacon bits, etc)
-4 oatmeal pie cookies
-2 Carl's Junior famous Stars with ketchup
-2 chocolate bars/ 1 semi-sweet hershey's & 1 hershey's milk chocolate
-orange juice
I think that's all...
Fucken I am so tired and exhausted from exercising and shit and fasting, I need to stop binging damn. And keep my weight low shit so I can look pretty and shit for acting, and skinny for ballet and dancing and modeling. *sigh* :) I love my dream and passion and goals so sacrifice I must and work fucken hard! :( Please I need to make money now from this, I wish I get booked on several continuous jobs now God. :( please help me!
Went to my home Alanon meeting, it was a Speaker meeting
than went to catch the last 40 minutes or so of the BYOB AA stepping stones meeting.
than gym again for a lil, shower, home here etc blah.
peace
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